Man makes his personal history. Whatever good or evil he does becomes a part of his personal history; they will never be another man's personal making, but they are his own personal making. There is no reason to deny those past facts in ones life, whether they be pleasant or unpleasant, degrading or uplifting, for he himself creates his own world. Why be ashamed of the past for it's the mirror of oneself.

I am not a hypocrite to hide my identity as I am told to relate myself to all of you -- readers. There is no need to lock in my memory lane my identity as a person formed by the world I belonged before. Nor I am ashamed to expose that I am this or that human being. I come upfront to reveal myself as an "ex" or an "outcast" in the world where I was confined.

However, I don't claim to be a VIP in this case, but like any average student, I want to be open to everyone to unveil a portion of myself. Any revelation of one's historicity leads to more understanding and unbiases.

Once upon a time I was "confined" inside the walls of the seminary for a period of five years. I don't know how much I became of myself as a person after those years inside. All I can say I am now tagged as an "ex."

My reason for leaving the seminary will always be a haunting question for friends and acquaintaces and I am sure they will becurious to know the "whys." Whenever I am confronted with such question, I can only give them an immediate answer, "because it is not my vocation," or just a "smile," a smile that does not give any satisfying answer, but invites more questions and mysteries in their minds. To give them a convincing answer would mean sitting down with them, and unveiling the books of my personal history and relating my "Untold Story," Inside the Walls of Holies.